hey everyone.
whats up? nothing much here just hanging out with some friends and at the library. life is going really good right now. but its tooooooooo hot. i might be on my way to something really big. i might be becoming a truck driver with the love of my life Keene. things are going good right now. and through everything that has happened me and him are still together and still having fun being together. we just had are 1 and 1/2 year aniversary. i really dont know when we will be annoncing our wedding just yet. mainly because for the both of us its just not the time to do so. i miss the talk about getting married but maybe this will be for the best right now. got to love the boy though. he is the best thing that has ever happened to me. even though i miss all of my friends its just something that keeps me sain when im around him. i love and miss all that read this. talk to you all in the near future.
Julie
aKA
Bulldog

Hey everyone.
i know its been a long ass time since you guys have seen or heard from me, but let me let you all know right now that im alive and kicking. i guess the only thing to say right now and straight up is well IM STILL HERE. right now im working 2nd shift so its hard to deal with the how time i get home and crap. i guess i just figured that it was time to get back to my writing again. lets see where to start with an update. well im engaged for the 7th and last time. me and this one are actually going to get married. not like the last ones. Keene is a really speacil person in my life and right now im trying all i can to stay sain while he is gone from my sight. right now he is in FL and anyone that truely knows me knows where i am right now but if you dont i guess you'll have to catch me on Yahoo to get the main updates. me and Cliff are long past gone. i kicked him to the curb about a year ago. but thats a long story i dont want to get into while im on this. i guess the only thing to say is he is a prick and i didnt want him in my life. hmmm... btw i wonder if anyone out there is really going to read this and let me know that they are glad that i poped back up for the great by yound. i guess not mostly because i dont have many friends left and im really happy about that actually. i have my family and my baby in my life that cares about me. i just wonder straight off if anyone is really looking for the Bulldog. i kinda doubt it but it could be cool to know that there is someone else out there that is trying to find me. oh well.... hmmm... Aj, my brother, is doing good. he has a great gf named Ella and they are doing great. his ex Meagan got married today to a 46 year old dude. somehow i feel happy about stoping that marriage between him and her. i know now more then ever that she was no good for him. then again there were alot of girls that were no good for him. but i guess at this point its neither here nor there. i started back with my writing again. hopefully ill be able to turn out a novel here soon. i kinda doubt it but i guess it wouldnt really hurt to try. well peoples im going to go and find me something to eat and try to catch a few z's (grabs the net and cases after them). lol. talk to you all soon.
~J~

Hey everyone,
whats up? nothing much here. im just hanging out. its a little after 1:30. and i just cant seem to sleep. I dont know what the hell to do right now. all i know is that i have so much on my mind that i just cant seem to fall asleep. my window is cracked open just a bit and its cold in here. i cant seem to close it because beth and Josh are asleep in the floor. i dont know why when i see them just lying there i feel so cold. like i hate my sister for being happy. I have a guy. he isnt here right now but he knows i love him. there is no one i love more. than my baby Cliff. i dont know why, but this foul wants me to marry him. and as many times as i have been engaged i have yet to make it to the alter. what its been 5 or 6 times that i have been asked to marry a guy. they never make it. April 24th we will be together 7months. he will be the one that i have been with more than anyone. he believes that ill make something of myself to the point i can just say fuck the world and pour me another drink. i have been thinking more and more how we are going to survive. and now more than anything i wonder why we are together. we are getting married. for all my friends to know. they think im Crazy for saying yes. but im going to do also the one thing i said i would never do. exspesialy after Tommy. Im going to be a Military wife. My boy will be going into the Airforce or the Navy soon. ill live on base and be the unnormal Military wife. Cliff might not want to marry him by the time he gets out of Basic. everything in the world will tell him that im just not the girl for him. but i think after anything he will still be there. I miss him terribly though. i want him to be asleep next to me. someone to just talk to or fight with. i would give anything in the world just to be there with him. even though his mother is a bitch. she really doesnt like me and everyone knows it. but i think with everything she respects me. Cliff went missing a week or so ago. and i was the first person she called. it was crazy. but for the most part i could tell she was as worried as i was when i herd the news. and even though she thinks im no good or someone that would hate my guts she at least respects me in some form and fashion. I wish that the one person that i cared about at one time would be here for me right now. and she wont talk to me anymore. maybe she is right for it. but what do i care half the time. i have a hard time trusting people and now she is just another reason for me not to trust her. i just do get why she never listened to reason. and the reason my family who took her in and cared for her, she turned her back on. Yea she is married now. and she thinks its going great. but wait to your with a person as long as my parents have been together. my parents have been together 19 years. atleast thats married. they have been together a hell of a lot longer then that. my dad has cheated on my mom. and my mom has thought about devorcing him every damn time. but they are still together. Ill be 19 in a month and some days. but i think the one thing that holds them together is us kids. my friend cant say that. she said she has had somethings that would sharder a married. well unless he was fucking someone that is his daughters age then she has nothing on what a marriage sharters. money problems yea that always happens, having to deal with the Army every damn day, (yea you married into that), and what him working himself to the bone. well thats because he is trying to make a life that you should really get off your ass and help make. I still love this friend more than anything in this world. but she is not helping anyone by saying her marriage is going great. the reason people say their marriage is going great is a.) because they are in Deniel about the shit thats going on. B.) wants everyone to envy her. or C.) she is just waying something in everyone elses face so no one will look at the bigger picture.

well people you be the decion makers.. am i wrong or am i right. anywhich way i think i can either finally go to bed or do something that is going to put me to sleep. ill talk to you all later. Julie

Directions- you start with 100% and for everything that you have done on the list, subtract 5% and repost this so that your friends can take the test...

1.) smoking
2.) drinking
3.) drugs
4.) gottin fingered or fingering someone
5.) gottin a hand job or given a handjob
6.) french kissing
7.) been felt up
8.) given a blow job or gottin a blowjob
9.) been licked out or licked out someone else
10.) had sex
11.) had a threesome
12.) given or takin it in the ass
13.) made a sex tape
14.) done any sexual act on school campus
15.) done anything in class
16.) Had relations with someone of the same sex
17.) pissed on someones lawn while drunk
18.) fucked in your room while your parents are home
19.) gotten caught havin a party
20.) fucked in a public place

10% (damn i did almost everything on there. fuck i should be having a great sex life but its not)

Dear Journal,
Hey everyone. whats up? nothing much here just sitting in front of the computer getting ready to crash. and of course smoking a cigarette. live has been getting easier. I finally found a job and Cliff will be here tomarrow. so maybe ill finally get laid. lol. most likely not but a girl can hope. i have been really busy with my mom and work lately so its not leaving me alot of time to fuck with this pice of shit computer. Thank the goddess above that i get Frankie, my computer tomarrow. and itll be nothing short of great. there is nothing wrong with her and she runs like a champ. btw i got a job at the elementary school and this was one of my few days off due to the high school winning their basketball game. i have to go to work tomarrow but atleast i got today off. even though i spent most of it at the hospital with my mom. its cool though. i came home and made dinner after trying to take a nap which because of my little sister didnt get to happen. i think this is all im going to write and ill write some tomarrow. God i miss my computer at least i dont have to restart it half a million times to get it to work and i get to play my games on it. now everyone will know what the hell ill be doing when i have nothing else to do. Night World. Julie

You are most like Robin! A leader and fearless by
nature, you tend to dive straight into
something without thinking. You have a hard
time trusting your friends sometimes and you
are extremely serious when you have to. You
don't like being compared to someone you are a
rival with and sometimes your temper gets the
best of you. Out of all of your friends you
might be the one who dreams to be leader or is
the leader. Whatever the reason sometimes you
need to look before you leap.


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